Wedding gown...

Went to choose wedding gown last friday nite. His mom and sister came with us. I was extremely tired after a long day of work, not really in the mood to try and think. Lucky i have his mom and sister to choose for me.

But we haven't found the gown that really suit me yet. Hope that there are more...to choose

Aniway, I have tried so many gowns before catherine, but still have not found one that I really like (except in Cymberline paris which is too expensive). But I have bought a simple gown from Cymberline, which I have redesigned. I'm more excited to see this one when it is ready. Going to wear it for our wedding party in Medan.

I chose 4 gowns for our indoor photo shooting. One of them is definitely the wedding gown itself. Two of them are night gowns (blue and brownish silver), the last one..is kind of interesting. We will be wearing kimono!

I think our indoor japanese style photo will look very cute.

Our photoshoot will be on the first day of the new year! That's really a good begining of the year.

Got to look for shoes...

Can't wait for the photoshoot...

Aniway, gotta see..eye doctor again tml. I hope...i can wear contact lens..on the photoshoot day!

Our Wedding Venue

Yeah..I am so delighted!. Our wedding venue is finally confirmed. Thanks dar-dar (also thanks your parents for letting us get married in such a wonderful place).

Our wedding special day will be held at:

The Ritz-Carlton Jakarta
Ballroom 3 & 5
JL. Lingkar Mega Kuningan Kav. E.1.1 NO.1, Mega Kuningan, Jakarta 12950 Indonesia
10th of May 2008

We will only be inviting less than 300 guests include family, close relatives, close friends & colleagues.

Ritz Carlton or Four Season?

We are left with these 2 choices for our wedding venue...
I like Ritz Carlton but not sure if his parents prefer Four Season...
But hopefully whichever it is, we can decide by next week.

At least we have 1 more thing settled (don't have to worry about it anymore).

We will use the same deco company as his bro's and god sister's wedding.

Things that we have done:

- Bridal package
-Deco company
- Wedding ring
- Flight tickets for wedding purpose

We went to see Ancol Mansion just now. Planning to buy a house in the near future. Not now,...trying to save money first and hopefully his parents will be open and willing to let us try to leave by ourselves.

Hopefully we can smoothly find an affordable home for us. And of course hopefully everything goes smoothly.

Today is Indonesia mother's day. My mom nvr..has her own birthday. I had been wanting to wish her happy mother's day since morning. But no....I don't think I want to. What if she was in a bad mood and I get another scold for no reason. Don't think I can take it calmly..(capeeeee...)

Wedding preparation Certificate

Yeah..finally we graduated from this course after 3 days of tiring intensive learning. The course is very useful, but it's hard to concentrate when I was forced to wake up early. Spent half of the time sleeping secretly.

Aniway..Both of us are really happy we don't have to go through it again. Oh well, unless we decided to change our wedding partner (ha-ha)

"Finally we can Get Married! (in Catholic Church)..That's what he just said" :D

Christmas 2008

Last year Christmas was special. Because..He flew to Singapore just to spend Christmas with me with special mission :D (marriage proposal hehe). I still remembered those half a year when we had long distance relationship. But he always came to see me whenever there was special occassion. Those time was tough, but meaningful.

Now, we saw each other almost everyday. it is great too!

This year christmas is filled up with work and wedding preparation. I haven't even found something for him yet. I think I should, to keep christmas always a thanksgiving day for us. Both of us should thank God for this 1 year and I want to also thank him for loving me and taking care of me.

I was thinking whether we could have a day trip somewhere on the 24th evening and come back on the 25th? But is there any cheap but nice place to go?

I have never seen white Christmas before. It's good if we got married in December, then we could have white christmas in Europe. But don't think we will enjoy holiday in winter time because it will be too cold to go everywhere for shopping hehe.

I hope in 2010 I can spend Christmas in Canada (Can we go with my parents to find my aunt there?).

Parents

Last week, my mom came over for a week. The purpose of her trip was to find gowns for my wedding. We had planned for this trip quite some time. And of course, i was anticipating it.

But the first few days of her trip here, we were quarelling so badly. I wasn't thinking straight. My mom likes to say, I was rebellious. She would dig out the old stuff, brought it up, only to conclude that I was different with my siblings. I was so mad, until i threw things, shouted, cried, and I said, I hate her. I was vexed with many thoughts, about wedding, and this uexpected eye infection added to my burden. I was very much worried about financial and health. and I just couldn't listen to any more grumbles-although I knew she said things for my own good.

May be because I have not lived with my mom for years. So whenever she came, it will take me a few days to adjust to her presence, similarly, she would need time to understand my presence too.

But when she left. I felt something was missing. I missed her of course. Last nite, I woke up a few times, to find my mom wasn't sleeping beside me. And I missed that feeling of having a mom close to me.

Actually all this time, I always angry with her, only because I was jealous. I always thought she loves my siblings more.

I think, I was just a copy of my mom, we are as stubborn, that's why we nvr stop..fighting.

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I guess it was only 2 years away that I will be a mom myself. And I do worry that I will have a daughter like myself. That's why I always said, I only wish to have 1 kid-a boy. Because I don't want to have a relationship like what I have in my mom.

But I think, God wants me to learn. And may be He will give me a daughter.

The first 2 days of Wedding preparation course

Last weekend, both of us attended wedding preparation course at Cathedral church.
Come to think of it, God does has His own plan for Every Children that He created.
Looking at the 42 couples who attended the course, I can see that, whether you are pretty, ugly, rich, poor, young or old, God has prepared a partner for you (if He already determined you won't be chosen as pastor or suster to serve Him).

I remember, when my sister was introduced to her husband via my mom. Mom said, both of them have many similar habits and characters: "Dua-duanya pelit, galak, and bochap". My mom said,..the way she saw me and my ex bf was like 'fire and water'. None of our characters and likings seem to match.

But now God has given me a life partner, that fit so well. He is not a perfect human in this world but he is a perfect husband for me.
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I am also thankful that in this path of life, I was able to learn about God, being a christian since young, and now had finally become a true Catholic. I guess, all this things had been planned isn't it?

Although Catholic has so much traditional rules to follow, but I like the way they care for the community. Take a look at the Catholic wedding preparation course. Each couple only had to pay Rp. 200 ribu for the 3 days course. In each session we were given food and drink.

And of course those people who gave us the course did the volunteer job for free.

I see the wedding course as something compulsory for everyone who plan to get married. In the course you will learn about the purpose of marriage, marriage as sakramen, health and sexuality, communication, financial, etc...Things that you won't learn from your parents or sisters sometimes, because they are too shy to share with you their marriage life.

When a man and a woman are preparing for wedding, they are focusing on the preparation, but they have no time to think and imagine how life would be when they become husband and wife. Everything will be different compare to dating life. There are new responsibilities, new place, new people to live in, and of course they are so much new things and problems that will come a long the way.

We won't be told,..that marriage is Love Heaven. No, it's not. Marriage is actually learning about what life truly is, (Marriage is actually to fulfill God's purpose on us which we will find when we have children, and facing what they call, the ups and downs in life).

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I never see marriage is something easy. In fact, if you ask every couple, they will say they are happy to anticipate the special day, but they will also feel scared, sad (to leave the parents), throwing away your single status and be ready for all the commitments etc.
But....

All this things...at the end of our life, I am sure, everyone of us will agree...We never live our life with regrets.

My groom

My mom said, my husband to be is a good man.
He is smart and reliable.
He can be a husband who takes care of the family.
And She thinks I am so blessed.

She likes him better than my sister's husband.

and She said,
I should not be worrying, and think too much about negative stuff.

She is right,

Sometimes we need the 3rd person to look at things for us.

Although i have a love and hate relationship with my mom, she always give me advice.

But our relationship (my mom and I) is nvr peaceful. A happy day will follow by a shouting night.

Wedding update

Finally we bought our wedding bands. We couldn't find suitable ones for platinum rings (there is only few few stores who sell that), so we decided to get white gold.

A single diamond for his, and a few small diamonds for mine. It is the perfect ring for us at the right budget! The ring comes with two christmas rand deers and a lucky draw voucher!

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He bought me another gown. Very simple gown that I love alot. I plan to wear it on our wedding party in Medan, 2 weeks before our wedding date in Jakarta.

I have also found a dress for my bridemaid. I bought 2 dresses (red and white). I like it alot too. Because initially I plan to wear it myself. But I have had a number of dresses. It is a black and white tube dress. The dress has a shining white skirt with ribbon and the tube is black. Very..elegant :)

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We haven't confirmed our wedding venue yet. Most probably it will be at four seasons.

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I spent my weekend choosing gown for my mom. I want her to look pretty on my special day. She bought a gown from Cat walk (Sugeng designer). A very unique gown, elegant and classy. She paid 5 million rupiah for that. It will be gold in colour. For our party in Medan, she bought a blue qiong sum, which fit her well, despite her body size. She likes the qiong sum better although it only cost half of the other gown.

After the shopping spree, i was very tired.

Don't want to be ugly bride

After a couple of months feeling eye discomfort, I decided to go for eye check.
It was on the same day when my mom came. Her nagging had pushed me to visit an eye specialist.

The doctor said, my cornea got some kind of infection. White spots, rough cornea, causing bluring of my vision. Most probably due to wearing contact lenses or strong liquid that is hurting the cornea. I can actually see from the mirror that my left eye can no longer reflect light like a clean mirror. My eyes are usually bright with the light brown colour. But now the left eye look like empty. I felt very sad especially the doctor tells me, my right eye is affected too. He nvr says I can recover 100%. He just gave me tons of medications..and ask me to come back again.

I had put the eye medication for 3 days now. It does not get any better. I feel it was slightly worst. With my specs on..the vision is blur. Without specs..it will be even worst.

I don't want to be a bride that is wearing eyes on my wedding day.

That night, i burst into tears. A visit to the doctor had cause almost 1 juta. I think I had to visit the doctor a few times and dunno till when it will stop. Another money issues...which come not at the right time.